For when diction fails

If you know me, you know I listen to loads of music, classic rock to be precise and a lot of British rock bands. And I know next to nothing about the current top songs. Before Spotify, I listened to music mainly on my iPod, It contained all my favourites albums, in between there was Chopin.

How did it get in there? Thing is, I was maybe looking for something 'soothing', I don't know if this is the right word. But, I was looking for something. And I always had this particular one on repeat all the time

Nocturne No. 2 in E-Flat Major Op.9 No. 2

Besides Chopin's Nocturne No. 2, at that time I did not know much. I know the famous ones for sure; Beethoven's Symphony No.5, Fur Elise and Bach's Toccata and Fungue. But, they did not leave an impact as Nocturne did.

I was happy and content with the little I know, classical music for me was not something I think I could listen to for a long period of time. To be honest, I put my Chopin playlist to feel 'relax' or when I needed to clear my head. And after that, I would always go back to my other playlists. Classical music didn't mean much to me.

I wasn't exposed to classical music, I only started taking little interest while I started reading Haruki Murakami. His first book I read was 1Q84 like four years ago, the first chapter itself, I came across Janacek's Sinfonietta, it was playing on the radio in a taxi. My first reaction was in what world does something like this played on the FM radio? So, I look for it and gave it a listen. Again, didn't like it. And I moved on with my read. At that time, I was reading a lot of Murakami, and classical music is a recurrent theme in his novels. I didn't pay much attention, if that's the music his characters was listening at that time, it was fine by me. Much later, when I was reading Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage, I started listening to classical music after Liszt's 'La mal du pays was mentioned

"As he listened to the music in this junior high music-room deep in the mountains, as the sole audience for this performance, Haida felt all that was unclean inside him washed away"

  • Haruki Murakami. Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage

What I came to realise is that classical music is a like reading a poem or book or simply looking at a painting (done that too, I looked at Klimt's Portrait of Adele Bloch-Bauer I for a week on my phone), each one of us will inarguably interpret it differently. With classical music, no one can dictate you how to feel or think. It's all in you and only you. It's about self-discovery, it's like walking down a corridor of million doors, and each door you open brings something out of you or something you lost along the way.

However, I cannot turn my back on the first time I heard the loud-mouthed Liam Gallagher sang undeniably the greatest line of Britpop music. At that time, these few lines meant a lot. And it still send shivers down my back whenever I listen to it. Cause, it all brings me back to the first time I listened to it.

"Maybe I just wanna fly
Want to live I don't wanna die
Maybe I just wanna breath
Maybe I just don't believe..." - Oasis. Live Forever

Well right now, Tchaikovsky's Piano Concerto No 1: first movement, made me conclude that I don't really need lyrics. And that's when you know you're growing..

I am still discovering, it's quite an adventure. I don't know a lot for sure. I have put up a playlist of what I like to listen on the move and anywhere really. I don't know much about interpretation at the moment. I will work on it. I am focusing on how it's more that just 'happy' or 'sad' or why I prefer what is on my current playlist, why I like Tchaikovsky.. The list goes on..

Here's my playlist, give it a listen if you want.

Humeira Diljore

Humeira Diljore

Developer, lives on a little island call Mauritius in the Indian Ocean. These days, can often be found battling monsters & running around Hyrule.

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